I’m not going to lie. It hasn’t been a smooth week. The levels of exhaustion and professional frustration that I’ve been pushed to are levels for which words don’t even begin to do any justice. It’s October. I was supposed to be finding my groove by now. And I have. But one can only ignore her couch for so long before exhaustion begins to be accompanied by tears – and one can only hit so many proverbial walls DESPITE working non stop from 5am til well past her bed time before frustration adds to the pool of exhaustion drawn tears. With that being said – I found this this week . . . (God bless pinterest)
And it made me think.. and reflect. 1. What am I missing out on? 2. Is life passing me by while I feverishly check things off of my to-do lists? 3. What else could I ask for?
My answers? . . .
What am I missing out on?
1. I am not missing out on a thing. I visit my family almost twice a month. I talk to my best friends AT LEAST on an every other day basis, and our conversations ALWAYS leave me smiling. Ryan and I squeeze in dinner dates and outings with friends as often as we can. I have found and maintained my gym routine that I only skip to NOT miss out on things like dinner dates with friends and family! So, NO I’m not missing out on a single thing!
Is life passing me by while I feverishly check things off of my to-do lists?
2. Life couldn’t pass me by if it tried! I’m perfectly content with where life has taken me at the age of 28. I’ve gotten married to an incredible man, I have an amazing family who has supported every step in life that I’ve taken, I have wonderfully perfect friends who are there for me when I hit the walls and understand my drive to live the (100mph) way that I do, I have bought my first house – that I am absolutely in love with, I do what I love -TEACH!, and I’m happy with the person that I have become as I’ve continued living my own, big girl, life as a married/working woman! I’m proud of my life accomplishments and if successfully completing a to-do list means never watching an episode of Grey’s while it airs, well then that’s what I’m going to do.
What else could I ask for?
3. There’s one thing I’d ask for. One. And that’s a little bit more QT with my hubby. We cook and have dinner together each night, and we squeeze in a dinner date for just the 2 of us on occasion, but our weekends are so busy and filled that we don’t get much time to just be together. I should be used to that as the first 7 years of Ryan and Ashley were spent in separate states, but I thought we’d get more time together than we do now that we share a zip code… However, now that I’m thinking about it…the reason why we DON’T get to relax and have each other to ourselves on the weekends is due to the fact that we are BLESSED with friends and family that we spend our weekends with! I just wish there was a secret 8th day of the week we could set aside for *us*. Maybe we’ll work on creating our own version of an 8th day… but for now, that’s the one thing I’d ask for. Do I wish I were still teaching across the hall from my best friend in the world? Yes times 4 zillion. Do I miss eating dinner with my mom and dad every night? Absolutely. Would I give up to-do lists forever to be able to see my sister more than once every 4 months? Sign me up. But honestly, within reason – there’s nothing more that I could ask for right now in my life.
Ya know what else is part of my “life” that I can’t and won’t function without? Productivity. And despite my frustration and exhaustion, being productive and in control (of what I can be) of my life makes me smile. Enjoying life is a lot easier for me when productivity happens parallel-ly(?) to it. Just sayin’.
In closing, even though my days haven’t gone as smoothly as I’d like them to this past week, my life for the last 28 years has been better and more filled with blessings than I could have ever imagined possible. So, now, I’ve gotta get back to my 100mph life 🙂 I’ve got lots to do! . .
